My Story
Since I was very young, I always had that feeling of connection with Spirit. I was raised Catholic, like many people in the Western world. God was always present in my home, and it was my paternal grandmother who taught me that connection, although it was religious and strict.
Growing up, I had always considered myself being a happy child. But like many of you, I had blocked many memories from childhood, and now I understand that a part of me, called Ego, was there to protect me, and I blocked traumatic events a little girl could have endured. The details are not relevant at this point– the most important thing is that those events did not come to light until in my late 40’s when the pandemic hit the world. I needed time to recover, to enter and delve into the shadows of my soul.
The other story that I told myself was that, if I kept quiet and didn’t speak my own truth authentically, everything would be fine, that is, people wouldn’t abandon me; Needless to say, after moving far away from my homeland, Panama, I experienced the disruption of my marriage, found myself alone and stranded with my daughters. Ultimately, the fear of abandonment that I was always afraid of ended up actually happening.
Since 2007, I attended all the workshops and courses I could, I needed to get all the best spirituality books, and I participated in many conferences and circles, most of them only for women. I hired a couple of coaches and invested a lot of money in the search for myself, my purpose, my truth, my voice.
In 2014, I had my first experience with the sacred plants medicine and since then, the true journey began: the journey into my heart. From these experiences, I have learned that my Ego protected me in my early years as a little girl by blocking the traumatic events, called “trauma” from my memory.
Trauma is a wheel that moves us, and it is not until we decide to take control of that wheel to straighten up and look at the engine. Due to this, we become unconscious, and life passes us by and sometimes we do not even understand why we behave in a certain way, and we end up paying a very high price with our relationships, with family, and our destiny.
It was in a ceremony, very early in my process of “getting to know” myself that I received a deep call from my Higher Self, the call of my purpose, and it was the same unique sensation that I had when I left my country back in 1999. I will never forget the uniqueness of that feeling. Since I moved to the United States, I’ve always dreamed of returning to my country with a mission or a purpose. My life continued to evolve, and although my profession was not aligned with what my Spirit was preparing me for, I kept going. I kept receiving messages from Spirit of a career change to be a counselor or someone who will bring healing to the world.
I remember that moment as if it actually happened. The most incredible feeling of unconditional love surrounded me. Everything around me was light, she wrapped her arms around me, and I was divinely held whilst receiving her love. There was no exchange of words. After a moment she handed me a gift, and the vision ended. Since then, I never knew what the content of the gift was.
I am sharing this story with you because it is crucial information so that you may understand the process by which my devotion becomes the passion that I want to share with you.
As I explained before, I began my own journey of discovery back to my heart, back to find my voice. Although, looking back, I wish I had someone to talk about my experiences with the sacred plants and be able to integrate, give meaning to the dreams and the visions that show up in my daily life and relationships with other people. I didn’t find someone who would support me with that.
I encountered alternative ways like regression therapies, cathartic hypnosis, sound healing, lots of breathwork sessions, reiki healing sessions, akashic record readings, mediumship, and the list goes on and on, which I found totally valid in supporting my integration process.
My soul knew the way: it is to trust the process of what it takes to know that the truth is within, to look back and search for the thread of the original trauma. The healing process is not looking for the questions and the answers outside of you, the answers are always within yourself.
In a quantum hypnosis session, when I had an encounter with the little girl version of myself, and many questions were answered, including what was in the gift box that I received from my great aunt, given in the vision I had with her years ago, which I just shared with you.
And then the miracle happened, it was revealed by my higher self, the gift they gave me when my aunt appeared to me, and we asked, what was in that gift box? It was my voice. When the box was opened, a bolt of light appeared, a bright blue light was placed back on my throat and my voice returned.
Through the miracle of integration, I began sharing this revelation at that time with my peers in training, my coach, my partner, my daughters. Now, it is for me to speak my truth with you, who are visiting my page, those that have lived the wounds of trauma, because it’s time to heal.
I could not have learned all this without the support of all my soul family whom I feel safe with because they never judged me, the healing that had to happen far away from my homeland. And now I am ready to share my truth to be heard, not to judge or claim, just to be a witness, to be able to share the sense of belonging that I had lost all those years.
My gift to you is to be able to share, connect, and explore together the dimensions of our unconscious level to bring it to the light of your essence and heal together.
Now that you had come to visit me, and learned about me, I would like to ask you a few questions; “Are you ready to uncover the program that has run your life?“, “Whatever it is that you want to heal, achieve, or change, are you ready to answer to the call of your Self?“.
Book a Complementary Connect call with me and let’s explore together!